My wife is still with me and is changing my life very profoundly. Every so often, she will say something to me in my mind and heart. This material is extremely valuable to me. It has been life-changing and fundamentally enlightening.
I have wondered what to do with it. I’ve thought of continuing her diary but because I cannot prove absolutely and certainly that it comes from her, I am hesitant to do this. When our new website is deployed, there will be a section from both of us, created with the understanding that its core is the question and mystery of human experience.
This gets me to the most powerful and extraordinary thing she has as yet given me. It is an entirely new way of praying that she calls “open prayer.” It is not a way of speaking but a way of being. It is a state of life, an inner posture that is supplicant and open.
We live from our egos, but ego is an illusion. George or Mary or Whitley—these names we were given when we were born—are part of our biology. Of course we fear death. Whitley will die. We all will. But there is someone else inside us who does not die, who is here using the body and all that it offers to gain experience and the self-understanding that comes with it.
In Open Prayer, we live this as our reality. We open the door in ourselves to that which is behind life, the eternal partner that is us. Ego becomes part of the beautiful machine of the body, and we surrender ourselves to the fact that we have a deeper and truer life than the one we live on the surface.
Open Prayer is reached through meditation and the surrender of ego that comes with it. It is not a type of prayer that asks for things, more life, some relief from suffering, whatever we may need. Open Prayer accepts our state. It unites us with the consciousness that exists beyond intellect and its needs. It is, and when we are in a state of Open Prayer, we are.
It cannot, in the end, be put into words, but when one is there, one knows it. It is as if we have found a place that we always knew was within us, which is where we truly belong. Open Prayer unites us with all consciousness in the eternal moment that is now.
She gave me this. I am trying to give it to you. I can only hope that I have.