My experience now is very different from what it was at first. Right after I died, I was an exact replica of myself when I was alive except that I wasn’t sick and I could walk. The first thing I did was show Whitley that I could do that again. I knew that he was grieving terribly, and I wanted him to see that some good had come out of it.
Now, I am myself, not Anne. Anne is very much part of me. I know and understand her, what she was and how and why she lived as she did. Anne was a wonderful life and I’m very glad and very lucky I had that energetic transformer. I love my Anne and I tell Whitley that I’ll always be Anne for him.
I no longer experience subjective, or sentimental, love. I am in love with reality. I am part of the joy of consciousness. I am me and all being both at the same time. Objective love is the energy that created the universe and that sustains its expansion. There is a quest for knowledge going on. Everything seeks to be known. This desire is objective love. It loves all knowledge, not just the things that are pleasant or nice. It loves and desires the dark, too.
This is because, if all knowledge is to be found, then the bad must be loved, also. Remember always that the dark is what enables us to find the light. Without the dark to reveal the stars, we would not know that they were there, for example.
Objective love is not like romantic love. Romantic love is fixed on details—the way the beloved looks and acts and thinks. Objective love is not fixed on anything. It glues reality together and so is present everywhere. Once you know that, you know God.