I have not added a journal entry in months. The reason is that I have been at a loss about what to say. But I’m going to try, at least to put down a few paragraphs about what’s been happening to me. Outwardly, I’ve been living my life, writing, working on this website, interacting with friends, all the usual things.
Inwardly, though, something has changed and is still changing. My difficulty is that it’s so very hard to put into words. Also, as time goes on, I get more and more reticent. I don’t think I’m becoming a hermit, but it’s a struggle not to do what I have seen so many close encounter witnesses do, which is to turn entirely toward their experience and close the door on the outside world.