Activities fill life. Our time is passing, the moments flowing away, seemingly forever. And yet nothing is lost in energy. Every slight change that living things make is eternal, and this is true as well of everything we do. So how do we recover lost time, or does it matter? Should we?
It is about bringing ourselves to life in a new way. Normally, we experience passing time through the slit of the immediate moment. But we cast a long shadow, which is, in fact, not only alive but also outside of time, so it is cast both into the past and the future. This is the true meaning of our place in eternity. It is why it is said that we don’t die. It is also why life has both meaning and consequences. Energy cannot forget, and when the filters built into the brain drop away at the death of the body, there is a profound shock.
The whole aim of becoming conscious of one’s long time when still encased in the body is to prepare for this shock, in hope of making it as rich as possible, so that the energy generated will propel us into ecstasy, and we will not be impeded by the weight we have gathered, the things we should not have done, the things we should have but didn’t, and the things left undone.
The very heart of compassion is compassion toward oneself, but it is far more difficult to accomplish this than we imagine. Letting go in the way we need to let go feels to the ego like death. To love ourselves truly is to die to ourselves.
What of us really matters—the births, the deaths, the loves, what we have found of the truth—these are all light enough to rise with us.
In this meditation, we try, with compassion toward ourselves, with humor and understanding, to really face the burdens of guilt and anger that we carry with us, and to bring the energy of forgiveness to ourselves for the wrongs we have done, and to others for the wrongs done us. To do this, we allow ourselves to relax into acceptance.
Let it be.