Whitley's Journal

Living with the Big C

Back on May 1, Anne had surgery to remove what was thought to be a benign tumor called a meningioma from the area in her brain where her bleed had taken place in 2004. We were dismayed to be given a far more serious diagnosis once the doctors could actually do studies of the tumor. She has a very, very dangerous cancer called a glioblastoma multiforme and worse, another very rare but dangerous tumor called a gliosarcoma. This second tumor could be a consequence of getting radiation from CT-scans in 2004, or it could be associated with an earlier incident that took place in 1992 or 1993 in our cabin. I think it might also have something to do with Fukushima. Maybe they both do, but so far no statistics have emerged that would suggest this. My problem with that is, would we be told if Fukushima radiation was causing cancer here?

Here is what happened at the cabin: One night, I saw a reddish glow coming from the living room. I ran to the balcony that overlooked it and observed a reddish-orange orb hanging just above the couch. Our Burmese cat Sadie was on the back of the couch and appeared to be moving toward it. By that time, I had a camera ready, but as I ran to the bedroom to grab it, there was a flash of light and when I got back, the orb was gone.

Sadie was curled up in a ball on the couch. When I roused her, she seemed all right, so I went to bed. But the next morning, she came struggling down the hallway yowling. I could see growths in both of her eyes. When we took her to the vet, we found that she had suddenly gotten cancer. She died within a couple of weeks. Two years later the other cat, which had been asleep in our bed upstairs, also died of cancer.

Did Anne and I receive radiation doses then, and is that why she has a gliosarcoma? I was physically closer to the event than Anne was, so if I come down with a radiation-associated tumor also, then we'll know, but there is presently no way to tell. What we do know is that we are facing the most serious crisis of our lives. My wife of 42 years, 66 years old and previously in excellent health, may not survive this.

We are taking a four-pronged approach to the illness. First, we're going with the standard radiation-chemotherapy protocol. This will not cure the cancer, but if it works well, it could give Anne some good years. We have also set up a program of supplements and gone on a ketogenic diet. This last is a very rigorous version of the Atkins diet that eliminates absolutely all sugars and carbs. The reason for the diet is that tumors can only feed on glucose, and this drops your glucose levels to rock bottom, causing most of your normal cells to feed on what are called ketones instead, and leaving the cancer cells to starve.

We are also taking up Qi Gong with a master associated with the UCLA Medical Center who is himself a cancer survivor of many years standing. The energetic approach offered by Qi Gong has been beneficial to many cancer patients.

Unfortunately, Anne's tumor is not accessible to any of the promising therapies now in advanced clinical trials, so we don't have the option to go on a clinical trial. A second round of chemotherapy with a drug called Avastin will be available to us when and if the cancer starts to grow again. Our oncologist is one of the inventors of this treatment, so we can be assure of the best possible management should it become necessary.

However, the truth that we are both facing together is that there is a much greater probability of death here than we had ever expected. As all of you know, I have been on a profound spiritual journey. I know that there is not only an afterlife, but that it is much richer and more varied than this one, where we are inserted into these very dense bodies that prevent us from seeing outside of the time stream. We come into this state in order to be able to act entirely out of our essences, without the enormous knowledge that attaches to 'normal' life, which is life outside of the body and outside of time. Earth, like many other such worlds, is a place of self-testing and self-discovery.

Anne has had very few instances of contact with the outside world, but just enough to make her pretty sure that there is an afterlife, but that our religions and belief systems offer very little real knowledge of it. I'm in a different position. I explored this other reality for years. I know for certain that it is there--that, in fact, physical life is embedded in it, a very small part of a much larger spectrum of consciousness.

Still, facing the next phase is hard. It's scary. Anne is a brave human being, and has nothing to take with her from this life of which she need be in the least ashamed. When she had her NDE in 2004, she saw people sitting and waiting, clutching bundles of things that they could not let go from this life. Anne will step off free of such bundles, and will soar.

If it happens this way, I am going to have a huge personal struggle. We are deeply, profoundly bonded. It is a truly symbiotic marriage. If I must slog on alone in this unforgiving density, I really cannot think how I will bear it.

If I must, though, I will. I am quite certain that we will continue on together in some way. But right now, our focus is on the present and on accomplishing the impossible. We seek to learn to live with this eerie visitor who has insinuated itself into our lives. We know that he will not leave the house of her body, but perhaps we can lull him to sleep there, we hope for a long time.

Do remember us in your prayers.

So sorry to read what you and your family are going through. Sending you, Anne and your family my prayers and thoughts.

Like so many others, this has hit me very hard. Not too long ago I was in Burbank, CA to hear Whitley at the fundraiser for Dr.Leir. I'd been hoping to see and (possibly) meet Anne too. Years ago my wife, son and I met Whitley at 2 different booksignings, he was extremely gracious. As a result of some things my then very young son said to us, I wrote to Whitley and Anne after the initial meeting, and the letter was subsequently included in "Confirmation". However, we never did get the chance to meet Anne. As fate would have it, Anne had just underwent surgery on her foot and couldn't attend the Dr.Leir fundraiser. Later she had what appears to be a non malignant brain tumor and we learn it is so much worse than that. To say the word cancer is almost in itself a horror. Several years ago I was diagnosed with a rare type of cancer, but one that has an excellent survival rate and it was caught very early. However, hearing the surgeon tell me that the biopsy showed cancer left me in a state of shock. Long story short is that I am fine, needed no treatment at all(the initial surgery that removed the tumor apparently got it all at the time). But the shock was real, and I sincerly empthasize with Whitley and Anne. The fact that she has continued writing her column floors me, and is very much appreciated. On a few occasions I have diasgreed with her, but always appreciated her thoughts as I know that they are well reasoned and not knee jerk reactions. My family wishes her and the Striebers all the best and pray for her to beat this.

As an aside, while at the Roger Leir fundraiser, a somewhat kooky guy just wouldn't let an issue go and Whitley basically told the guy to get the hell out(most of us laughed but were also happy he did that, the guy was truly annoying). Whitley: Bring that same combativeness to this, infect Anne with it(I think she already has it) and fight this together!

Dear Whitley and Anne,

I'm so sorry...

You are both in my prayers.

I'm a new subscriber, but a longtime interested fan. You, Whitley, and Anne will both be in my prayers, and I pray you are both in perfect health. Please keep us posted. As others have said above, miracles happen every day, so why not one to you and Anne? My thoughts are with both of you.

Dear Anne and Whitley,
I add my prayers and positive energy of support to you and your family. I also ask all Masters of Healing in all dimensions and realities and times to assist you, including Padre Pio. You both mean a great deal to me, even though we have not yet met physically. The no-sugar, no-starch diet is a great approach to starving the cancer cells. Good move! :)

Thank-you for sharing this with us Whitley. I want you to know that you have both had a profound impact on our lives and we appreciate all you have done for us. Two years ago, my wife was diagnosed with inoperable late stage Pancreatic cancer. While she was having a port surgically implanted so that the chemotherapy drugs would not destroy her veins, I was waiting in the Operating Room Waiting Room and had a conversation with a woman who's husband was having surgery for colon cancer. As we were talking, she asked about my wife's symptoms, because she had been experiencing rapid weight loss and back pain. When I discovered that she was a deeply religious Catholic, I shared my theological understanding that we enter into eternal life at baptism, when we are sealed by the Holy Spirit, so ultimately death has no meaning for us. We are already living in eternity. Actually, those words just came to me and at that moment I felt a great weight lifted off my shoulders, because I was well aware that my wife wasn't expected to survive more than a few months. It amazes me how we can theoretically understand something without really understanding it until the time is right. Two weeks ago, while I was working on last Sunday's homily, I read a lecture by a doctor who died of cancer earlier this year. He said that we all understand that we will die one day, but we simply don't believe it. That was my experience before my wife's diagnosis. We have been living with this for two years now. She is in remission but life is still one day at a time. Like you, I don't know how I could carry on without my wife, but for now, all is well. In a sense, this diagnosis has been a blessing, because I now really understand what is important. Each day is much fuller than it used to be, back in the "olden days" when we had a future. We will keep you both in our prayers and again thank-you for coming into our lives.

Anne and Whitley - you are in my prayers. Miracles do happen, and there are many of us visualizung a long life for the two of you - together and healthy into your senior years. This doesn't change the fact that what you're both going through is brutally difficult and painful. I want to echo some of the other comments and say this website and Whitley's books have been an invaluable home base for processing the most challenging life lessons many of us must face. Kudos to you both for sharing so much with us - even in your darkest hour. Sharing these deeply personal matters casts a line out to the universe, and the universe sends back deep compassion. You are both brave and wonderful and we all love you and are praying for you.

Dear Whitley - Thank you for once again sharing so deeply, honestly, and profoundly what is happening in your and Anne's life -- and this time, of course, it is immense and deep as it gets. Love and prayers for you and Anne and for all whom you love and who love you.

Fight, fight, fight! You wouldn't be the first person to experience a miraculous healing, so why not! You're good people and we need you both! Sending love and healing prayers!

I am so very sorry to hear this, and I will wish for the best.

Dear Whitley, I thank you so much for communicating with your characteristic fierce loyalty to truth, the difficult reality that Anne and you are now sharing. There are not many words as the news takes me to a place deep beyond words, a kind of inner knowing and understanding that silence and sorrow express to each other in a language and music of feelings. There is a soft, luminous and very alive light that does not speak of outcomes but only of the truth of your relationship and carings for each other; a sentient, beautiful light that I see you both immersed in and affirm for you. It is united with the love of so many who express themselves here on the forum, and myriads of thers deeply affected by your being, your relationship, your works and service.
Blessings and love are with you both.
Larry W. Berry

I have always thought that if I came down with cancer I would never turn myself over to the cancer industry. It makes sense to me to enable one's innately powerful immune system to fight off the cancer cells, not beat it even further into submission with chemo and radiation. I would advise checking out the natural supplement called "Carnivora" at carnivora.com What have you got to lose and may God bless.

Anne and Whitley - you are in my prayers. Miracles do happen, and there are many of us visualizung a long life for the two of you - together and healthy for many more years. This doesn't change the fact that what you're both going through is brutally difficult and painful. I want to echo some of the other comments and say this website and Whitley's books have been an invaluable home base for processing the most challenging life lessons many of us must face. Kudos to you both for sharing so much with us - even in your darkest hour. Sharing these deeply personal matters casts a line out to the universe, and the universe sends back deep compassion. You are both brave and wonderful and we all love you and are praying for you.

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I wish with all my heart you both will continue to keep the strong bond between you forever. My prayers of love to you both.

1. take a look at the Burzynsky treatment, controversial but maybe helpful;
2. i attended Roger Jahnke lecture at recent ACEP conference in Reston, Va. he documents healings with QiGong so i am glad you are already looking into this. he also wrote a book The Healer Within. Harvard Med School also published a book on the effectiveness of QiGong.
3. Ann Wigmore suggested use of wheatgrass juice for detox.
4. i also suggest talking to the Hippocrates Inst in Palm Beach.
i am so sorry to learn of Anne's illness. My thoughts are with you and her.

Dear Anne and Whitley;
I will pray for you both, and for Anne the strength to overcome what is needed.

Love always, Si

Dear Anne & Whitley,

I will pray for both of you and I sincerely hope that Anne can beat this and be ok like she was after her stroke.
One thing that struck me though is that due to her NDE, Anne doesn't have to BELIEVE that we live on after this life rather she KNOWS. And because both of you know, you don't have to fear.
Live every day to its fullest and hopefully you will both have many happy years ahead.

Like so many I have followed your lives for 25years. And i have loved both your honesty, humor, and earnest endeavors NOT TO GIVE INTO THE MEDIA.
whatever happens we love you and will do what we can to support both of you.

I add my prayers for both of you to the group's.
Great that you are doing the ketogenic diet. That will also keep insulin levels down which can only help the immune system. You might also read up on the research done by Dr. Valter Longo on fasting before and during chemotherapy to both lessen the side effects of chemotherapy and shrink the cancer more effectively.
This is a new journey for the two of you and a difficult one at that. I hope the loving thoughts of this group will help smooth your path...

Nothing but prayers and good postive thoughts for you both !!

Sadly, former Philadelphia Phillie Darren Daulton has been diagnosed with the same cancer. However, our local news carried an interview with a local cancer researcher who was not as pesimistic as most of the other reports were. Did indicate that there is reason to at least hope. Whitley mentioned something a bit similar, so we will hope.

This sudden news of Anne's condition brought a lump to my throat and distraction of what Whitley's life would be like without her.
As you said, Whitley, you are both so acutely aware of the dimensions outside our narrow "3" here, and we are all aware of the higher dimensions to which we all go eventually. But you are still grappling with the prospect of medical procedures that lay ahead for Anne, and the possibility of her leaving this dimension far too soon for us who still remain here a while longer.
Along with your many, many other followers, I wish you and your family only the best outcome for everyone involved.

Sending you both positive vibes. All four aspects of your treatment plan sound great. If theres anything the UC community can do to help, please ask. Anything. Much love to you both.

I am damned sorry to hear this. You both are in my prayers. God bless both of you!!!

There isn't a day that passes that i don't think about both of you.It's funny how you feel you actually know people even if you have never met. You have both enriched my life for a long time and continue to do so. My prayers are with you.

Best wishes to Anne and Whitley. I never really 'got' Anne until I met her in person. Then I realized what a truly wonderful person she is.

Since you made your health issues public, I assume you're welcome to some feedback. Ditch the chemotherapy - it causes cancer, it doesn't cure it. It is not healing. Try cannabis oil if possible, intravenous vitamin C & D, and other well-known approaches to cancer. They may or may not help, but they won't make a hell. If you can, find a well-informed doctor (first hint - s/he won't even think of recommending chemo).

Beyond this, I know I would want to die peacefully rather than going through hell trying to stay alive. And I would rather die at home. If a more peaceful, yet somewhat earlier departure is what Anne chooses, Whitley and the family will need to be brave through this, rather than clinging and pushing her through more suffering than is necessary.

Our culture really fails when it comes to death. Have no fear, Anne! Celebrate every moment of life.

My thoughts and prayers are with you both during this immensely difficult time.
Best wishes!

You, and Anne, have been with me on my very difficult path nearly from it's beginning.
I have gained so much from yours and Anne's work, and I can't thank you both enough for sharing it in the very open manner that you both have.
I certainly don't feel that either of your journeys is coming to an end, both together and/or apart.
If either of you should begin to despair, at the very least, you can refer to the long list of good will, sympathy, and absolute earnest hope and love for the both of you, left after your simple and honest journal.
I only wish I could give you both something tangible in return for the invaluable assistance you have provided for my own life.
Anticipating much more to come,
with love to you both,
Light in Extension!
Plus Luminis

Love, light and peace to you both during these difficult days.

Prayers sent for you both.There is a Buddhist temple that has an unbroken prayer vigil for 28 yrs.You can send prayer requests at www.tara.org/prayers/

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