As I discussed in my
Night
Thoughts audio file, my mind is
changing. An example of what is happening came the other
day when Anne and I were at lunch with Dreamland co-host
Marla Frees.
Marla asked me what was happening to me, and I replied that
I seemed to have acquired a vast store of memories from the
past. Not "big" memories, but the same sort of little bits
and pieces we collect in our everyday lives. But for what
seemed like hundreds of lives.
As I spoke, I saw one of them in my mind's eye: a woman
leaning over and lighting a candle. I described it and then
said that I had no idea of any context. It was simply there,
like what appears to be thousands and thousands of others.
Then the unexpected happened--and believe me, it struck me
right between the eyes: the waitress arrived with a slice of
cake for Marla with a lit candle on it. Unbeknownst to me,
it was Marla's birthday and Anne had gotten the waitress to
do this. Anne then pointed out the connection between my
"past memory" and this event.
Now, this might seem like an innocuous coincidence, but as I
have learned from working with Starfire Tor, the more
careful you are about noticing and documenting such
experiences, the stronger they get.
This is why I am so hopeful that we will make some major
strides at the Dreamland Stargate. It just feels to me that
this is going to be a major experience for me, and that I'm
going to come away from it with some control over what
exactly is changing in my mind, and better understanding.
A number of people attending have had contact experiences,
and we discovered at our old cabin that bringing people like
that together could attract the attention of the visitors.
Sometimes they would even show up physically, and, frankly,
I would really welcome another couple of minutes with them.
If I had that, I would use it to expand on what I learned
during my encounter of December 15, 2007, to make my ability
movement through parallel universes and to observe the
reality of the time stream stronger and more clear. (To read
my journal about that experience,
click
here.)
There is nothing like a gathering like this to intensify
energy in a lasting way, so I'm hopeful. And I know from
experience that the people there, although many fewer than
at our other conferences, will turn out to be exactly the
right people to do this with.
If there is to be a human future, the human mind has to
change. Has to. If there is such a thing as a reason to
live, facilitating this in myself and others is my reason to
live.
I think that we are quite incredible, but also that we have
been somehow plunged into a devastatingly passive state,
and
blinded to our true power, our true value, and the true
purpose of our lives.
I see the visitors as being a force for awakening. My adult
relationship with them started out with an initiatory
experience the equal of anything that was done in ancient
times. I was devastated by an unforgettable shock, beaten
up, raped and so completely upended that I could not
possibly continue to deny their reality.
To this day, my anger and fear fester. But that's as it
should be. When somebody is as deeply asleep as I was, and
the stakes are as high as they are, necessary means must be
taken, even if unpleasant.
The visitors don't care whether we like them or not. They
don't appear to have that need. But they DO care whether or
not we're awake. That is crystal clear.
Whether they show up or not on the weekend of the 16th,
one
thing is clear to me: there will be great energy there. The
thing is going to work.
