I have been thinking for a while about whether or not I would
ever write this journal entry. But I am going to write it, and
I?m going to tell you things in it of a kind that I have always
kept to myself in the past. For years, I?ve watched in silence
as certain things have happened regarding UFOs and the
close encounter experience, and these are not good things.
The reason that I've hesitated to write about these things is
not that I think that they should remain hidden, but that this
is a very subtle experience, and our entire culture tells us to
see things in black and white. People who are full of anger
want to indulge themselves by believing in evil aliens. People
who are starved for spiritual food want to believe in good
aliens. Evil vs. good. It just isn't enough. The experience is
too big for this simple-minded approach. If you think in terms
of black and white, you lose you chance to make the most of
this.
This is the reason that I hesitate to write about the dark
side. I don't want to contribute to this polarization. But
things are changing. The dark side is getting very aggressive,
and it must now be met with something like direct resistance.
The close encounters I had between 1985 and 1994 were
scary, but only because they were so unusual. The people?
or beings?I met were complex and, in the end, gentle. They
had a wonderful, subtle sense of humor. There were many
personalities involved, obviously many different individuals.
My life with them was spiritually and intellectually rewarding.
They responded with deep understanding to the path I was
on, and worked with me as true masters work with a student
on the journey toward higher consciousness.
That is not true now. What is happening now is absolutely
terrifying, so much so that I have kept it to myself in hopes
that I was wrong, or that it would change.
I have watched a world in denial, and I have watched the
dark side of a phenomenon that is the strangest, most
powerful and, I think, most complex thing mankind has ever
faced gradually drawing into sharper and sharper focus.
Some of what I see, even from this dark side, I like and I
welcome. I feel that there is a lot of evolutionary pressure
being applied, both to individuals and to the whole species. I
see us responding, as a species. People have brought me
children who are
miracles. Such children are present in my own life as well.
Despite all the lying of the fragile and immature egos that
infest the media, the average person knows that something
very real is happening, that somebody is really here, and that
our official world, and our visitors, are keeping that fact
secret.
I am beginning to see a pattern emerging in what is
happening to people who can effectively and convincingly
challenge that secrecy, and I don't like what I see.
Some years ago, a very brave congressman, Steven Schiff (R
NM) challenged the silence of the government and initiated a
General Accounting Office investigation of the Roswell
Incident. That investigation revealed that all the records from
the Roswell Army Air Field had been destroyed for the years
1947-1952. Illegally. The secret stayed kept, but it could not
have been more obvious that an extreme and long-term
coverup was in place.
The secret survived, but the congressman did not. Mr. Schiff
got cancer, a form of skin cancer that is not usually life
threatening. But it grew and changed and could not be
controlled, and it killed him. Okay, I said to myself, it?s an
unfortunate coincidence. But then another young
congressman, who I shall not name, had a massive and
essentially unexplained heart attack in a Washington airport.
He was going to be very important in the disclosure process.
He survived, and was given advice by friends to stay away
from the UFO topic. He has.
Now a dear friend of mine, Bill Mallow, has died after getting
two different forms of leukemia at the same time, a most
unusual circumstance. Oncologists I have talked to say that
it happens, but it?s extremely rare. Bill was crucial to the work
I do with unusual materials. If you saw the Confirmation TV
special on NBC in February of 1999, you?ll remember Bill. But
you?re unlikely to see another such documentary. The
producer?s business partner was murdered a few months after
it was aired. A coincidence? Could be. But maybe not.
Certainly, despite that program's decent ratings, nobody has
even come close to doing another UFO special on national
television.
Bill Mallow did some of the most important research into
unusual
materials that has ever been done. Despite the fact that his
employer, the Southwest Research Institute, took a dim view
of his work, he kept right on. He had just enough knowledge,
based on his long years of experience in classified areas, to
KNOW that something was to be learned from the materials I
and
others were giving him, that he would not stop. He was a
powerful man at the institute, one of its most respected
scientists. They let him do his work.
Did you know that he discovered that a magnesium-barium
material that I brought him (from the Art?s Parts cache) was
made of a unknown type of foamed magnesium, with a thin
layer of barium sandwiched between?and there was
absolutely nothing between the barium and the magnesium,
nothing holding it together except empty space? No, you
probably don?t know that. Bill certainly couldn?t publish. He
was often forced to give me his reports verbally. But this
material is definitely manufactured. But how? By whom?
And a
piece of iron that was extracted from a witnesses? hand by
Dr. Roger Leir was definitely iron. It was magnetic. But it was
also invisible to x-rays, something that remains totally
unexplained.
Bill couldn?t publish in the scientific press about it. No journal
would dream of taking such an article. Not because there?s
anything wrong with the work, but because the scientific
community dares not do real science anymore, cutting-edge
science, because avoidance of the unknown?and especially
this one?has been institutionalized by organizations like the
sclerotic US National Academy of Science. Depart from
accepted orthodoxy and, unless you have fifty years of good
science and
dozens of key discoveries under your belt like Bill did, you?re
out on the street.
Bill discovered a lot. Now he?s gone. But we had another
scientist, as close to Dr. Roger Lier as Bill was to me, who
had a big metallurgy facility and also a sterling reputation. So
surely he would take up the slack.
He?s just been diagnosed with Pancreatic cancer, a disease
with a mortality rate well over 90%. Another coincidence?
Perhaps. But the fact has to be faced: three of the men who
were most crucial to disclosure?who had real power and real
abilities?are dead or dying.
We have nobody in congress and no real chance of getting
anybody into office who might help anytime soon. And, quite
frankly, there are awful whispers along the halls of the capital
about this subject. People are afraid, and I think they have
reason to be afraid.
It is my belief that a very dangerous presence of some kind is
working hand in glove with the intelligence community to keep
us from gaining any real knowledge of what?s happening.
Organizations like the Air Force go along with it because they
don?t want to admit that they?ve been hiding the most
important thing that ever happened to mankind. I think that
their Office of Special Investigations uses many
agents, ranging from members of the skeptics community to
seeming UFO investigators, to enforce a UFO ghetto. They
absolutely hate me because my voice is heard outside of that
ghetto. I?m dangerous to them, to the more knowledgeable
and sinister forces in the intelligence community, and to
whatever higher power is orchestrating this. And so are
people like Roger
Leir and Linda Howe?all the free voices who will not be quiet.
The reason that elements of government and big corporations
can be induced to
abet this evil scheme, I believe, is that they are offered a
vision of power and control over we the people that they find
irresistible. They do not adhere to the gospel, these people.
They have forgotten, ?Again, the devil taketh him up into an
exceeding high mountain, and sheweth him all the kingdoms
of the world, and the glory of them; And saith unto him, All
these things will I give thee, if thou wilt fall down and worship
me.? (Matthew 4: 8-10)
They have not recognized what they are dealing with,
because we are in a state of amnesia about the invisible
world that exists all around us. They have forgotten how
Jesus responded. He said, ?Get thee hence, Satan: for it is
written, Thou shalt worship the Lord thy God, and him only
shalt thou serve.? The men and women who are keeping this
matter secret are not servants of God. Most of them are very
secular people, who tell themselves that there is no soul.
Others are the exact opposite. They are religious fanatics
who have justified their evil lives by twisting the Word into a
mockery of its true meaning.
Unlike these officials, the first visitors I met most certainly
were servants of God. For all their
ugliness and strangeness, they offered me help on my own
path, real help, compassionate help, help that I was
eventually able to use in writing the Path.
No matter what happens
to me, I?ve made this book. I?ve created a machinery of inner
strength that cannot be defeated by evil, not in a good-
hearted person.
If the dark things I have seen ever emerge into our world, it
is going to be truly awful. It will be as if planet earth has
been physically dragged from the starry sky into the depths
of hell. Our lives will become a monstrous parody and an
illusion. There will be no protection, nowhere to hide, and no
escape.
Even if they do not emerge, there are powerful elements at
work above the level of government that are drawing us
inexorably down the road to spiritual--not to say physical--
slavery. Over time, the use of
genetic engineering by morally evil governments and
corporations is going to create new kinds of human beings
that will not have free souls at all--that will, in fact, be living,
breathing perversions of God?s work on earth. Right now,
countries like China are developing massive human genetic
engineering programs. Behind these programs, as also behind
the more immediate attacks on our freedom such as the
grotesque efforts being made in the United States to wreck
freedom in the name of
homeland security, there is a conscious presence, totally
committed to one thing: the destruction of the will of man.
We are coming to a time when we are going to have to hide
our freedom in our hearts. Over thirty years of my life, I have
been working toward the creation of a tool that will preserve
and even strengthen freedom even in the most oppressive
times it is possible to imagine. For better or worse, the Path
is now published. It?s out.
As a result of what I have done, I think, quite frankly, that I
am under attack.
For two weeks, I have been dogged by one of the most
horrible and just plain odd experiences of my haunted life.
Normally, I don?t think that I would even know what?s been
happening to me. But I have become so sensitized to the
world when I sleep that I do know.
I believe that all the people who are working toward real
disclosure of actual, physical proof of the presence that is
here are vulnerable. That's because they are dangerous to
this presence. On the scale of a single man, its power can be
very great. But when it comes to all men, it has little real
power. So
it requires secrecy.
If it was strong, it would be doing its worst
among us out in the open right now. No, it?s weak or it would
not need the secrecy provided by government, big
companies, the media and big science.
If the people who know the truth told
the truth, we would, at a stroke, be free. I have written
before in these columns about what they fear--that official
disclosure would lead to profoundly unpredictable and
unexpected consequences, even to a change in the nature of
our world.
The truth is,
if they had the courage to make the official admissions that
would
lead the average man to know for certain that there was a
presence
here, that presence would become unable to do its will in our
world. The secrecy that they believe is protecting us, is
actually dooming us to capture by inches, over generations.
There is an invasion taking place all right, but so slowly and
so secretly that we are not aware, as a species, that we
need to mount a defense.
I said that I thought I was under attack, and I do. But please
remember what I said earlier: this is a subtle, complex
experience. The attack could be an attempt to teach me, to
get me to use what I've learned from books like Practical
Psychic Self Defense, for example, to start becoming an
active participant in the invisible world, rather than a passive
infant.
In other words, I could be describing something that only
looks like a malignant attack, but could actually be an
initiatory challenge.
What has been happening to me is this: every night as I go
to sleep, something begins moving against my skin, creeping
like some sort of very slow insect. I have
seen and held this object. I have tried to crush it. But I
cannot. I cannot get a sample. It seems like a living thing,
but I do not believe that it is alive in the same sense that we
are.
About a week ago, I woke up and found it penetrated
into my chest just above my collarbone. I pulled it out and
tried to crush it between my fingers, to gouge it with my
fingernail. It struggled furiously in my hand. It would not
break up. I turned on the light and sat up, with the intention
to take it into the bathroom and capture it in a water glass.
But when I relaxed my grip just a little, it disappeared before
my eyes, for all the world like some kind of a magic trick.
It has tormented me night after night. I?ve examined the
bedding and the bedclothes. There's nothing there. But this
thing is there, and it is doing something to me that I cannot
stop. I?ve tried moving into other rooms, but it is soon there,
as well. I have no doubt that it would be there wherever I
went.
Is it real, or some kind of odd hallucination? Could be either,
and I know from experience that this is another burning
question that I must not answer until I have absolute proof
one way or the other.
But I am wondering: were the others who
have been destroyed visited first by such things? Perhaps
they were, but were not hyper-sensitive like I am and simply
didn?t notice. And perhaps their health later was destroyed.
Maybe people like me and Roger Leir and Linda Howe, who
remain dedicated to getting physical proof, are now in danger
also. Or maybe its all a bunch of coincidences and the
experiences I'm having are just my fears going into overdrive.
Nevertheless, one fact cannot be ignored: physical evidence
is the one thing that would expose the visitors as being real.
If they want to stay in hiding, they cannot allow such
evidence to become widely known. So we could be next in
line, especially if we continue our work--which we, of cours,
will do.
There could come a time in every life when a choice must be
made
between living as the servant of a dreadful
power, whether it has a human face or an alien face or no
identifiable face at all, or being enslaved by it. If that
happens, then the good must choose
slavery and lock our freedom in our hearts. In those days,
hidden freedom will be the only freedom that is true.
Six months ago, I wouldn't have written about any of these
things. There was no point. I had no exit to offer, no route
toward empowerment.
I do now. It is the Path. Thirty years of travel along this path
has told me that it is a source of very real empowerment. It
is a fortress for free souls, in protection of their freedom,
which I define as their ability to see the will of God and serve
it. The fact that I was on this path was why the good
visitors came to me in 1985, and why the dark side has
worked so hard to hurt me, to minimize me, to make a joke
out of me.
I'm on a mission for people to get on this path, and I'm not
ashamed to say it. It's unique in the world, it's powerful and
it is precious beyond price.
The Path is available from Unknowncountry.com. To learn
more and order a copy,
click here.
The book is important. It has to find readers and be taken
into hearts or my life is a failure. I will fight for the value of
what I have to give, and the Path is what I have to give.