This coming weekend, in a subscriber interview with Gary Schwartz, the author of The Afterlife Experiments and the upcoming book The G.O.D. Experiments, I discuss my near death vision of God as a mathematical formula. While I have never written about this before, I did discuss it on Coast with Art Bell, shortly after I got out of the hospital.
When my deceased Siamese cat Coe took me to the world of the dead he also showed me a vision of God. I had a revelation: God is a mathematical concept called a probability theory. Everything in life is math: math is behind everything and defines everything, so this shouldn't come as a surprise.
After I told my husband about my vision, he bought me a book about probability theory called "Chance" by Amir D. Aczel. In it, he writes: "A probability is a quantitative measure of the likelihood of a given event. If we are sure that an event will occur, we assign it a one hundred percent probability. If we are sure that an event will not occur, we assign it a probability of zero percent." He goes on to give mathematical formulas for figuring out the probabilities of everything in between those two extremes.
I don't seem to have any memory problems from my recent burst aneurysm, but for some reason, for the longest time, I couldn't seem to remember the phrase "probability theory." I finally created a little memory trick, which consisted of thinking about a character in my new novel Little Town Lies, who is named Rob, then putting a "P" in front of it. "P-Rob" led me to "prob," then to "probability." My memory problem puzzled me at first, until I realized that many religions have a prohibition against saying or writing the name of God. This made me think that maybe my idea that God equals math was right, after all.
I wasn't a particularly good math student, never making it past algebra, but now that I know where to find God, I want to learn more about math. I'm sure I'll find a way to take a class or I'll meet a sympathetic mathematician who can help me to understand this. I've found that this kind of thing always happens when I'm destined to learn or do something. I'll keep you posted on my progress.
Meanwhile, I'm leaving my destiny in the hands of God, or, maybe I should say, mathematics.
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