Anne's Diary
Wednesday, April 16, 2014
Last May, just before my tumor was discovered, we had a wonderful experience that has let Whitley and I to a new understanding of God--as Dog. Whitley was meditating and suddenly saw a dog from his childhood called Quagmire. Quag was always joyous even though he lived under very harsh conditions and was often struck by the father of the family,...
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Thursday, March 27, 2014
We had a 4.4 earthquake here in Los Angeles a few days ago. It woke us both up from sound early morning sleep. It reminded me of the late Roger Leir. He was once working with another surgeon whom I told that I'd once had an operation during which a 5.5 earthquake occurred. Since I had a surgical earthquake story, he told me his.
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Tuesday, February 18, 2014
UPDATE! Speaking of waiting, I'm in the hospital after a fall downstairs caused by sudden instability that came about because my ventricular shunt, which controls pressure in my brain, had failed. (This happens to these things. It's nothing to do with my tumor, which remains stable.) If there is any place that involves waiting, it's a...
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Thursday, January 23, 2014
The Winter Olympics are about to start and NFL football is about to end. I have to admit that I’m not terribly interested in luge. In fact, this is always a season of regret for me, my favorite sport is NFL Football. I have a special way of watching it. I like to watch it with the sound muted. That way, I can read a book in my lap but not...
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Wednesday, November 6, 2013
In my present state of life, the question of whether or not we survive death has become of great interest to me. If we don’t, then I’m never going to know, so that doesn’t really bear much thinking about. But if we do, then I have a lot of questions about how to prepare, how to understand the life I am taking with me, and where I...
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Wednesday, October 16, 2013
Funny about being sick—I find myself more interested in everyday life than in anything supernatural. And yet, ghosts are still wandering through our lives. For instance, a ghost has turned up to help my maid for two weeks in a row. She’s a nice assistant, but she’s nobody I ever knew. At least, I don’t recognize her....
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Saturday, September 14, 2013
Now comes the last forgiveness—my mother, who killed herself when I was seven years old. If I had killed myself when my child was that young, I have wondered, would I feel guilty, looking back from beyond life? I think that I would, most definitely. I would see that what I did created so many unintended negative consequences in my child...
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Saturday, August 24, 2013
When my dead cat Coe came to me during my near-death-experience over a decade ago and showed me that I had to learn to put my burdens down, I realized that cats have a special relationship with the afterlife. The Egyptians knew this--cats were mummified and honored as having souls. This is why I want to write about a special cat who had a...
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Tuesday, August 13, 2013
When my dead cat Coe took me to the World of the Dead during my first stroke in 2004, he showed me that it would one day be important for me to put my burdens down, and one of he ways to do this is to forgive everyone who has hurt me during my lifetime. But perhaps this is a two-way street--maybe even ghosts need to put down their burdens and...
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Wednesday, July 24, 2013
I've noticed that certain people have more of a relationship to the dead people in their lives--what we might call ghosts--that others. Psychic mediums are like this--perhaps because the have one foot in each world. The dead often show themselves in what might be considered ordinary ways--which mediums are good at detecting, but which most of us...
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Monday, July 15, 2013
A weekly reading and discussion group Whitley and I are in seems to fixated on the subject of death right now, which is something that those of us who are actually FACING IT find distressing--I would much rather talk about LIFE. One thing I learned, that I told everyone there, is that when it's your time to go, one of your dead friends or...
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Friday, July 5, 2013
I was so glad to hear that the anti-gay-marriage Proposition 8 has finally been overturned b the California state supreme court. I NEVER thought that a state with TWO mostly gay cities--West Hollywood and San Francisco--could ever have voted for such a bill, but I know why it happened. Prop.8 was written to seem OPPOSITE of what it actually was...
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Thursday, June 27, 2013
Now hat I have a serious case of cancer (I go for radiation 5 days a week and take chemotherapy in pill form every night),I've begun to wax philosophical. Some of the best philosophy I've read is from Bucky the Cat, of the "Get Fuzzy" comic strip. According to Bucky, "Life is like a can of tuna--it's messy, it stinks, you can fit...
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Thursday, June 20, 2013
Even places you're not sure you like all that much can become "home" if you stay there long enough. I feel that way about Texas--it's not a place that fits the way I think, but I made lots of good friends there and I miss them all terribly. I was reminded of this when I read that Cicely Tyson just won the Tony for starring in "The...
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Monday, June 10, 2013
Violence has visited us recently: A man roamed our neighborhood with a gun, killing innocent people at random, and not far away an elderly woman was killed by a pack of dogs released, perhaps intentionally, by their owner. This reminds me of the times when these things almost happened to us. Until recently, I lived in the gun culture of Texas,...
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Monday, June 3, 2013
I intended to post this on Memorial Day, but I'm a bit late, having just gotten back from my little stay in the hospital. But I think it's still worth a moment of your time. John Kerry was sworn in as Secretary of State on February 1st, and I feel this is a kind of redemption for the "Swiftboating" allegations that were made against him...
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Monday, May 13, 2013
I have finally had the staples taken out of my head. (Staples are the new version of stitches.) So I no longer feel like I’m sleeping on a handful of safety pins. I'm also getting used to people trying to get blood samples out of my tiny veins. I am afraid I have a rep among the phlebotomists around here! I still can see very little in my...
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Sunday, May 12, 2013
When you have kids or grandkids, in this day of iPhone photos and videos, you are ALWAYS comparing pictures of the little ones with your friends and the people you meet. And, of course, your kids (or grandkids) are the most beautiful ones of all. This thought reminds me of being in the hospital and giving birth to my own son thirty-five years...
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Monday, May 6, 2013
Lying here in a hospital bed, I have realized that both Whitley and I have had our lives saved by dogs. Or is it really God in our lives? Here's why I think it might be. One night about three years ago while Whitley was meditating, he saw in his mind's eye a big old dog shambling up to him. He recognized the dog as being the pet of a childhood...
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Saturday, May 4, 2013
I’m still in the hospital. I may have some radiation treatment, not because I have cancer, which I don’t, but because they had to leave a portion of the meningioma in my brain, and radiation will sterilize it and prevent it from growing again. Not all meningiomas are benign, but mine is.
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Sunday, April 28, 2013
UPDATE: I had my brain operation on May 1st, during which several non-cancerous tumors were removed. For some reason, in my life, these experiences always involve jewelry. This time, a nurse brought me a pin that said “I’ve just had brain surgery, what’s your excuse?”
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Monday, April 22, 2013
I read a lot of fiction, and I can tell you this: Truth is stranger than any plot I've ever come across. I recently read two novels that centered around art theft, and learned that famous artworks aren't stolen for collectors, they're used as collateral by (mainly Russian and Eastern European) criminals. Then I read in the New York Times about...
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Monday, April 15, 2013
I recently realized I was lonely--most of my friends are in Texas or the UK, so I rarely see them. I joined a couple of "ladies" clubs, but found them unsatisfactory. One of them seems to be mainly about playing cards, while another is filled with querulous old gals who are constantly complaining about their health. I've had long...
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Monday, April 8, 2013
The baseball season is here and as usual, all the fans I know are in despair about their respective teams (since one of them has to win every game--there are no ties in baseball--you'd think SOMEONE would be happy, but nobody seems to be). In many ways, baseball is a metaphor for life, and this is best expressed in movies about the sport. Some...
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Tuesday, April 2, 2013
Or that's how the old saying goes, anyway. Pope Benedict appreciated the idea of dressing to fulfill a role--in fact, Esquire magazine put him on its best dressed list, saying that he had a way with accessories and advising their male readers: "It could be a pocket square or a chunky watch or a tie clip, but make it your own." One way...
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Wednesday, March 27, 2013
The current papacy is actually an extension of the old Roman Empire. The bishops of Rome took over the administration of the church using the governing methods of the Romans. As the Empire fell, that government became the curia (governing body) of the Catholic church. The pope is the "Pontiflex Maxiums," a Roman term meaning "great...
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Monday, March 18, 2013
I was raised by atheists, and when it comes to religion, I often joke that I'm a "lapsed Wiccan." However, I AM (officially, anyway) a Catholic, and I have high hopes for the new pope. I never thought that Ratizinger was going to work out--he was too hidebound and rule-oriented. When he told the nuns to stop paying so much attention to...
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Tuesday, March 12, 2013
Andy showed up at the grocery store, and now Joe has shown up as well. We go to a local discussion group on Tuesday nights, and right now we're reading and discussing the mythologist Joseph Campbell. The last time we were there, Whitley kept seeing a man in a 3-piece suit and fedora standing in the corner. He was curious because this outfit was...
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Monday, March 4, 2013
Whitley has always loved the humor of the late comedian Andy Kaufman, who once put a gun to his head and told his audience he would shoot himself if they didn't laugh at his jokes (you can imagine the forced guffaws that resulted from this). He also once took his entire Carnegie Hall audience out for milk and cookies after his show. When he was...
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Monday, February 25, 2013
You may think you've had some odd experiences (especially if you've had VISITOR experiences), but I think something that happened to me is right up there at the top. I woke up to find several faces peering down at me, asking me questions like, "What's your name?" "What date is it today?" "Who's the President?," and...
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