This coming weekend, in a subscriber interview with Gary
Schwartz, the author of The Afterlife Experiments and the
upcoming book The G.O.D. Experiments, I discuss my near
death vision of God as a mathematical formula. While I have
never written about this before, I did discuss it on Coast with
Art Bell, shortly after I got out of the hospital.
When my deceased Siamese cat Coe
took me to
the world of the dead he also showed me a vision of God. I
had a revelation: God is a mathematical concept called a
probability theory. Everything in life is math: math is behind
everything and defines everything, so this shouldn't come as
a surprise.
After I told my husband about my vision, he bought me a
book about probability theory called "Chance" by Amir D.
Aczel. In it, he writes: "A probability is a quantitative
measure of the likelihood of a given event. If we are sure
that an event will occur, we assign it a one hundred percent
probability. If we are sure that an event will not occur, we
assign it a probability of zero percent." He goes on to give
mathematical formulas for figuring out the probabilities of
everything in between those two extremes.
I don't seem to have any memory problems from my recent
burst aneurysm, but for some reason, for the longest time, I
couldn't seem to remember the phrase "probability theory." I
finally created a little memory trick, which consisted of
thinking about a character in my new novel Little Town Lies,
who is named Rob, then putting a "P" in front of it. "P-Rob"
led me to "prob," then to "probability." My memory problem
puzzled me at first, until I realized that many religions have a
prohibition against saying or writing the name of God. This
made me think that maybe my idea that God equals math was
right, after all.
I wasn't a particularly good math student, never making it
past algebra, but now that I know where to find God, I want
to learn more about math. I'm sure I'll find a way to take a
class or I'll meet a sympathetic mathematician who can help
me to understand this. I've found that this kind of thing
always happens when I'm destined to learn or do something.
I'll keep you posted on my progress.
Meanwhile, I'm leaving my destiny in the hands of God, or,
maybe I should say, mathematics.
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